life, love, and death

sht i dont know what to do, i dont even know how to tell you how i'm feeling right now, i think you'll quit your life or something like that, my life's ruined, i really want to quit this all, but i just can't, hmf maybe i'm better off dead but i didn't have enough "points" to be laid on heaven

i'm dying (on twitter and blogger)

hi there bodies, i'm feeling pretty excited here, i even dont know why, but that's me, weird & magical lol. hmm i wanna tell you something here, did you know that i waste a lot of my time with typing on this board and looking on this thin screen (wow), but i only keep going on facebook, "eyewashing" lol hahaha that's what me and my friends do when we feel bored, and i can't keep my twitter and this blog updated, i dont know, feeling pretty lazy to open it hahahaha

4 killing lines

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

keren gak sih? sakti kan itu, memang john mayer hebat.

the truth

hi there d00dz! i'm not feeling good today, but not so bad.
hmm know what, i'm goin to tell you some truth here, ready? dont tell anyone except they already read this too

did you know that i was trying to get back to someone's arms these last 4/5 days?
hmm but she was giving me signs that she's refusing me, it's so obvious dudes
i felt so dissapointed so many times, so many peoples tell this words and i think i was just the same,
know the words? "i've been dying to reach you" oh it was so true to me
i think i should leave this "place"

y:(hey where's the end, is that the end? so meaningless, can't you wrote something better?)
m:(hmm i dont know how the end is, i just knew how to start, but i dont know how to end) (lie)

9:56 and you still fell asleep

hi there dudes, good morning, hmmm you know i'm trying to reconnect with someone i still "i-know-you-know-what-i-mean". hmm but i'm feeling pretty bad with this, i'm feeling lied, damned, but i dont know, i can't guess it, i just hope it's not, if it's true, i never thought that you're so cruel like this...

choco of happiness

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i'm messed up right now, my life feel sucked, i'm so sick with this.

i'm netting in a bad place, hmm dirty and i didn't feel any comfort, and crappy smell of paint is haunting me oh come on, and i bought a webcam for my pc, so bad, crappy, feeling like i wanna threw this but oh, i'll just place it in somewhere and use it when i need.. then, i'm goin to get my cure, CHOCOLAAAAAAATE!

penting!!!!!!!!

hmm gw gak nyadar ternyata ini lirik gw banget, banget deh, gw gak pernah sadar sebelumnya ternyata ini menggambarkan banget, coba lo baca ya

(I miss you...)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

(I miss you...)
(I miss you...)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you...)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you...)
[x3]

(I miss you...) [x4]

blink-182 - i miss you

if these words won't make you understand, i dont know the other way

i couldn't left the line, i couldn't pass the time
the memories i had was too good to be forgotten
and so do you
i'm trying to forget you everyday
but i just can't

i know these all was my fault, it's all mine
i thought we're better off as friends, but the fact is i didn't feel any better
well i really need you back

and if i could go back in time.
i won't make a mistake, and make you dissapointed

so please, lets go back in time with me
and do you know who i mean?
you, someone i've ever called as "japanese doll"
cause of your shine and your pink cheeks

friends and boredom

(looking to the screen with a fan in the left of my head, the fanspeed set to 1) hello, i'm so bored now, i dont know what to do, i think i should get more friends, do you want to?

awalilah hari bahagiamu dengan coklat

haloooooo i'm not overexcited now but i'm excited enough, ada fakta unik, akuwh baca di gogirlz loh haha, coklat mengandung zat yang bisa bikin kita lebih bahagia, membawa fantasi kayak kita lagi jatuh cinte gitu hahahaha, serius, sudah dibuktikan, jadi mending lo coba dari sekarang, tapi oops gw gak nyuruh ya hehe

its a good day D00D2!

oh my i'm so so so so overexcited right now! dont know why! so lucky i got such good friends like you! and you! thank you! and i wanna show you a thing that i'd love to see hehe, oops the picture is deleted by an accident hehehe sorry guys

ALHAMDULILLAH

thanks god its a good day

recent pictures

i told you about the connection, and that was the evidence, nice right?

woo-hooooo

haloooooooooooooo(kayak kalo nyapa seseorang yang disukain) apakabar? i'm feeling so good and fine today yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

asik abis nih, kamar hampir jadi, komputer udah bener lagi, kenceng lagi, ramnya asik nih dan yang paling asik lagi, internet gw oh my please this is so good, you know what? internet nya cepet abis!!!! gw belom pernah pake yang secepet ini nih, gw pake broom unlimited baru aja diaktifin tadi, sekarang lagi download wlm buat komputer ini asiiiiiik ;p kali ini saya merasa bahagia hahaha, dan tolonglah tuhan jangan tunjukan ini hanya demo speed, hidupku akan lebih bahagia apabila kondisiku seperti ini (y) please god.... (:p)

bye guyzzzz hahaha

16:57

hi, i'm feeling i'm betrayed, i dont know, i hope this will not gonna happen....

28

i'm missing you so bad...................................................

today's confusion

forgot to tell you something, i'll try to open myself as wide as possible to be published on the web on this blog :D, but..... you'll never know who i really am, the true, and if someone know, i'll make it to be my best friend, i'll be so proud, no one knows me perfectly, and i want to have one of it, it would be great i think, it will help me a lot when i'm down.

hmm i got a confusion today, its haunting me, today's confusion is......

you know i've been broken up with someone, she's just cool and so good to me, she might be one of the best things i've ever got, yes, i'm sure. you know what, its not easy to forget and lose and let the feeling go away from your heart, and so do i, well the confusion is i have to do the things above, why i should do it? the reason is, i will be stoked on this situation forever, i dont want to, it feels no good at all, but if i do it, i just can't imagine how my life will be lived without her, she means a lot to me, simply i can tell you that i still...............(you should've know)

hahhhh, i dont know what to do right now, and i dont need to know, i'll just breath and live until the end comes to me, but please not now god, i need more more and more time to fix and be someone good in your side.

all the words have written, but two words still missing

good bye

forget the past me, and remember the present me

hi hello hey hola, i knew i've been so bad since the first time you know me, and i want to make a new form of me, i'm feeling so sick with this one, i should be better, i know i was so awfully bad in the past, and i'm trying to be better from now and then, and i know this is not the first blog i've ever made, i forgot to save all the data hehehe so i'll post my stories or anything i want to write from this brand new blog, and what i want to say is:
forget the past me, and remember the present me.

and last two words i want to say to you, THANK YOU!